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One place for life and ... |
So I started a youtube channel a long time ago, and have some subbies. I did mainly makeup, a droplet of advice and a sprinkling of random videos. Unfortunately, I haven't posted in a VERY long time, for multiple reasons. They are as follows and change frequently:
1. Looks: My acne has been flourishing and have become insecure about it as it is pretty bad 2. Location: I am not a fan of my apartment. No natural light, doesn't absorb installed light well, no where to set up as my apartment keeps changing around. 3. 9-5 life: Working on my day time career as Youtube is a hobby that does not bring in $$$ at this time. 4. Guidance: Feeling like I want to change the direction of the channel but not sure where to start. 5. Trends: I love makeup! But don't wear it everyday (bc of my skin). Bc I work from home (Graphic Designer) and because I not willing to go out and spend money I don't have to be on trend. I enjoy talking, while doing my makeup with what I currently have, and thats pretty much it. 6. Laziness: I give up at just the thought of looking for a place to film in my apartment. 7. Judgement: I think we can all relate here. But to not sound too complacent, I love youtube, and what its done for people these days. Its great that you can still be something without all the bells and whistles (college, money, etc) Now while I have two college degrees I would not be using other outlets if I felt fully satisfied with those degrees. I have always been the creative type, a gypsy if you will and struggle to love things for longer then 3 weeks at a time. If I am 2 years later still talking about something you know its amazing bc Im good for loving and leaving ( not in my personal life, but material Items yes!) I guess that is the main thing with my youtube is where I want to be able to be myself. But with youtube there is a sense of "the people in this box... be these people and you will be successful" and I KNOW that is wrong. Millionaires always say be yourself. But why is it so hard? I mean yes there are trolls and people in our personal lives that will remind us of our short comings but should that stop us? (Me mainly) NO! BUT... why has it? I realize that its def a 80 - 20 issue, 80% me caring too much and 20% other ppl caring too much. I have been starting new things but not sure how to put them out there, get them seen by the world. I feel like when you have more then one ability, why make yourself only live one dream? Or none at all? I have had multiple passions that I have left behind because I didn't want to deal with rejection. And even if I get positive feedback, I still wonder could it be better? I think I need to make myself accountable for so many things in my life. I want to be the greatest version of myself. I can get there... Well anyway... See you in the Soup!
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I have had a Tumblr for a while, and like Twitter, never used it properly. While others in the social world thrive I still don't get what is so special. YET! I still need a place to say something right? So I've been thinking. I have a website, that i like and frequent, why not put it here... stop the madness of 30 diff places and have one main place that if you like me enough (haha) you will look around and see what I enjoy, like to talk about, and be about in my current day to day. So here it goes, getting this Blog thing right hopefully for the first time.
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